As I sat in the sunroom with my coffee, something suddenly hit the window beside me - and hit it HARD! Butterball jumped into action, ran outside, and came back in bearing a little sparrow of some sort. She brought it to me and dropped it at my feet. Its little eyes were closed and it lay motionless in my hand, neck obviously broken. Alive and flying high one minute, gone the next.
So, here's what I decided. I am not going to sit and feel unworthy of the things that have been given me again. I can't get that time back, but I can choose how to spend my time and my thoughts. Today I'm going to live life as best I can. I'll stay busy, get some things into the car for a trip to the Salvation Army, stop by the custard stand before they close for the season, go by to visit mom, and later, if the weather holds, I'll go out with my book and my Butterball and be grateful. Not guilty.
Kathy,
ReplyDeleteYou aren't just learning life lessons - you are passing them along. Your words and your thoughts can't be equaled by anyone - so I will say thank you for the beauty of them and ask God to continue to bless you. It is, after all, what He does best.
Hugs my friend, to you AND to Butter.
Sue
Oh Kathy, don't EVER feel guilty for a few of life's wonderful pleasures. There are not enough of them anymore. Besides, just because you aren't working NOW, doesn't mean you didn't put in your time! You worked most of your life, you deserve a few pleasurable moments. Take each one as it comes, treasure the moment, and look ahead for what's to come. You took care of your mom from the moment you retired. Now you have the time and peace of mind, to enjoy each day that you wake up. As you have seen, things can change in an instant.
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